rest=true

I took a day to rest a little. I feel a lot better. I still have moments of sadness and loneliness. But I try my best to have fun. There's not much to do, so I like to go for walks and shower. I'll walk around, bob my head to the music I listen to, sing along a little. I don't give a fuck if someone sees me and thinks I'm crazy or strange. It makes me feel happy. I like to read, but I just got a halfway decent phone for the first time in a while and it's like having a new toy. Napping is nice, but I keep it to once every few days and only for an hour or so in order to avoid depression. I bought two ice creams today... Mint chocolate chip ice cream sandwiches. Very nice on a hot Saturday in the summer. I think I'll put on a movie and try to sleep for the night. Tomorrow I'm going to start the vlog. I'm going to record so much material.

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